Catching Up

Well there’s certainly a lot of things going on around here to catch up on!

Beckett turned three months old last Friday and I have a lot of things to say about that sweet boy but I don’t even really know where to start.  Nor do I have any words that do justice to him or the way we feel about him.  He is the most amazing baby.  We are seriously in awe of him.  Of how cute he is, how funny he is, what a great personality he has, what a perfect fit he is for our family, and the list goes on and on.

We’ve been a puddle of emotions over him since the day he was born (or actually, the day we found out he existed) but lately he has really taken us for a ride.  I think it’s his smile.  Or the fact that he makes legit eye contact with us now and responds to us.  Whatever it is, it’s an unstoppable force.  The other night Kolby was supposed to be getting him ready for bed and I walked by and found them in the rocker in the dark nursery, Beckett wrapped warmly in his monkey towel after a bath and Kolby holding him with watery eyes.  I walked over and could see what prompted the tears—Beckett was looking straight at him and just grinning and cooing and staring.  Those are all things he does all the time, but sometimes it just gets us.  I can’t tell you how much we cherish this time with him.  People tell us to enjoy this time because it passes too quickly, so we are.  Yet it’s still passing too quickly!

I take a lot of pictures of him and I also make a point to take a lot of videos of him, but I am still struck by fact that I still can’t seem to capture the real sweetness of him right now.  Sure I’ll have my scattered memory of what he was like at this stage, but will it be enough?  I’m having such a hard time thinking about him growing up!  (clearly) 

Anyway, one update on Beckett I want to share is that we got a great report about his irregular heartbeat.  He was born with a heart arrhythmia called premature atrial contractions (PACs) that often resolves itself by six weeks old but his unfortunately did not.  Most people, especially children, have a few spontaneous irregular heartbeats throughout the day, but Beckett has them very regularly.  This in and of itself is not a problem, but an irregular heartbeat can occasionally signify other heart issues.  We took him to a pediatric cardiologist when he was two months old and they did an EKG, a sonogram of his heart, and sent us home with a Holter monitor that basically did a 24-hour EKG.  The tests showed that he is perfectly healthy and that there are no heart issues whatsoever.  His “diagnosis” is a benign irregular heartbeat; we have a follow up in six months and then that’s it.  His special heartbeat won’t affect his life whatsoever.  We are so thankful for the good news!

In other news, my maternity leave is over and I’m back at work, albeit only part-time.  It’s going OK.  I miss Beckett terribly when I’m at work and think about nothing but getting home and kissing all over his sweet face, but I’m only away from him two days a week so I know I shouldn’t complain.  These first few weeks have been hard but I know we’ll get into our routine and everything will work out just fine.  He did great for his babysitters, and I’m very thankful for that!

Kolby is on Spring Break this week and I’m excited to have a couple extra days as a family and for Kolby and Beckett to have some guy time.  Last time they spent the day alone together Beckett ended up with three packs of baseball cards and binder sheets to organize and store them, so I can only imagine what’s in store this time.

Spring Break for us is the epitome of “what a difference a year makes” statements.  This was a pretty hard time for us last year so we booked a fun trip to Pheonix for the Rangers’ spring training as a way to get away from all the infertility doom and gloom.  But this year?  We’ll just be hanging out with our sweet little miracle child, celebrating his three month birthday!