Ramblings

“When is Beckett going to be here?”

 

It’s a phrase Kolby utters every couple of days, in a very childish and whiny voice liken to an “are we there yet?” complaint.

 

It’s funny because Kolby has never once had the capability to look forward to something in the future.  I guess he’s just more of a here-and-now guy.  “Are you excited about our wedding?”  “Are you pumped about our trip to Australia?”  It was all met with an “eh” response and an explanation that of course he’ll be excited when it’s actually upon us, but that it’s just hard for him to feel excited about it NOW.

 

Seems like the prospect of becoming a father, and bringing home a sweet little baby boy that is half me and half him is all it took to change his tune.  He’s excited.  I’m excited.  Just a long 4+ months to go!

 

There are some things about pregnancy that are baffling to Kolby, and it’s pretty funny.  He doesn’t really understand how our baby can now be 10” long—more than halfway to his birth length—but weigh only a tiny fraction of what he’ll weigh at birth. The funniest was when I was reading aloud a line from a pregnancy book a few weeks ago that said, “your baby’s ears are now in their final position” and Kolby looked over with the most shocked and quizzical expression and asked, “where were they before?!?!”  It’s a valid question.  I told him they were probably roaming freely about the baby’s head :)

 

We’ve purchased our nursery furniture and crib bedding, and we’ve started our registries.  It’s all been so much fun.  Kolby has actually picked out most of our main baby gear (stroller, car seat, etc.).  In general, he doesn’t have a preference about much so a lot of the time it ends up that I get what I prefer for things like where we go out to eat, etc.  But as we were shopping for baby stuff, he had a preference and also had a lot of great ideas, so it was fun to just agree and go with it.

 

For the baby’s room (I’ll never get over how wonderful it is to get to say that!!), we’re planning to go with a gray and white color scheme, with some red accents.  Kolby of course wants to have some baseball accents as well.  He has this idea to get a team set of vintage-looking Rangers baseball cards, and then choose 9 players to mat and frame on the wall (one player for each position).  Then each new season he and Beckett will choose what 9 they want on the wall for the season.  It’s pretty much the cutest idea I’ve ever heard, made even more so by the fact that he woke me up the other morning at 5am to tell me about it.  Including details that the mats would be white, the frames would be red (possibly square), and that it’d look best hung 3x3 over the changing table :)

 

Anticipating and planning for a baby with Kolby has been everything I’ve always dreamed about and more.  And the fun is just getting started!

 

Here is the 20 week (halfway!) belly picture.  I now officially look like a pregnant woman, and I love it. 

Kolby can now feel the baby move/kick!  He felt it for the first time just the other day and he goes, "I just felt my son kick.  Or possibly pitch."  :)

 

We had our 20 week appointment a couple of weeks ago and things looked great.  Everything is right on track.  Praise the Lord!

Baby Name

We have a name for our sweet little baby boy.




His name is Beckett.

We love it.  I hope you do too.  If you hate it, don’t tell us… and maybe when the little guy gets here he can change your mind about it! :)

It’s a name we first heard about three years ago when a pair of missionaries visited our church, and they had a new baby son named Beckett.  Kolby leaned over when they introduced themselves and mentioned what a cool name that was.  He thought it was probably from Thomas Becket, who was the archbishop of Canterbury (i.e. the leader of the Church of England) in the 1100s.  He was killed at the request of King Henry II, and is recognized as both a saint and a martyr for the Christian church. Anyway, we logged the name away, and it’s been in our top three ever since.

For a middle name, we chose the name Miller.  It’s Kolby’s middle name.  It’s also Kolby’s dad’s middle name.  And his grandfather’s middle name.  It originated from Kolby’s paternal great-grandmother, whose maiden name was Miller.  It’s a great family name with a long history, and I’m thrilled that our child will get to be the fourth generation to keep the tradition going.

So there you have it—Beckett Miller. 

So what is little Beckett up to these days?  Oh, you know, just hanging out and growing like a weed.  He moves and twists around all the time and it’s the most wonderful feeling in the world.  He’s working on getting nice and strong so that soon he’ll be able to give a kick that his daddy can feel from the outside.  Kolby is DYING to feel the baby move.  Every time that I say the baby is really moving around in there, Kolby rushes over to feel, but can only vaguely feel that something is going on in there.  We’re still waiting on that good swift kick!

Keep growing healthy and strong, little Beckett— we can't wait to meet you!!

It's a...

It's official--- we are having a sweet little baby boy!

We were set to find out the gender at 11am last Monday, but I got a call early that morning saying that the ultrasound tech had to leave the country suddenly for a family emergency.  We were leaving town that Wednesday for vacation so our only option for finding out the gender before then was to go to a diagnostic imaging center.  It sounds silly, but when you have been counting the days and then wake up that morning knowing that today is the day that you'll find out if you're having a boy or a girl--- you'll pretty much do anything to keep that a reality.  So we got the first appointment we could at the imaging center, at 4pm.  

Of course by 4pm our sweet baby was sound asleep for his afternoon nap, and he had his legs completely glued together.  We could not get even the slightest peek at the gender.  A doctor finally came in to give it a try, and it was the same story.  He was really nice and even let me walk around for a few minutes to try to get the baby to move into a different position, but even that didn't work.  He said that it was probably a girl, but that we need to come back in a couple of weeks to find out for sure.

All of the baby's measurements and organs looked perfect, and Kolby and I were first and foremost so grateful for that.  But I will say that we were disappointed that we would have to leave without knowing for sure whether we were expecting a little girl or a little boy.  As one final last-ditch effort I started pressing on the side of my belly a little bit, and just then the doctor yells, "there it is!" and the ultrasound tech freezes the screen on a picture that we couldn't make heads or tails of but was all it took for them to officially declare that our baby is definitely a BOY!

We are so excited to have a little boy on the way.  We didn't have a preference at all (or so we thought), but  as soon as we heard the doctor say "probably a girl" we both realized that we had been hoping, just a little, that it was a boy.

Baby boy is happy and healthy and growing right on schedule.  We finally have an official due date-- December 5.  I can't believe we're already half way there!!!

Praise the Lord for our healthy little guy :)

Catching Up

Let’s see… lots to catch up on! 

I’ll start with a baby update.  We’re now almost halfway there!  The second trimester is treating me MUCH better than the first.  Being very sick 24/7 was way rougher than I expected, so I’m glad to have that behind me!  I’m now in maternity clothes pretty much full time.  Speaking of which... where have maternity clothes been all my life?!?!  Elastic waistbands, longer tops, longer sleeves... it's everything I've ever wanted in clothes!  Several friends/family gave me plenty of casual maternity hand-me-downs, which I’m very grateful for!  Building a new work wardrobe has not come cheap, though, but giving speeches wearing a suit where the skirt was only half-zipped just couldn't cut it forever!

Here’s an 18 weeks belly picture:

[P.S. Posing in pictures alone is among my least favorite things in the world.  I apologize for looking so awkward in these... I'm embarrassed to do this at all but I know I'll like having it to look back on.]

In other news, guess who’s back?!?

That’s right—it’s Summer Kolby!  What a relaxed guy.  I have a lot of jealousy about Kolby getting a summer break, but I am working on it!  Then something like this happens:

K: Hey, I didn't fix you a lunch today because I figured you’d go out to eat.

E: Why would I go out?

K: Because it’s Friday.

E: Honey, it’s Thursday.

Oh what I wouldn't give to be off a schedule and lose track of what day of the week it is!  But he deserves the break for sure.

 

 

I know y’all are all on the edge of your seats waiting for an update about our garden.  No?  Well here’s a picture of some of our loot anyway:

We often eat sliced tomato with sea salt as a snack, Kolby puts jalapeno on EVERYTHING, we have roasted and stuffed poblanos for dinner about once a week (yum!), and a few weekends ago I made my first batch of homemade salsa and it was delicious!  We've really enjoyed having the garden.  And public service announcement to anyone planning a garden soon—beware of tomatillos.  Everyone warned us that our cantaloupe plant will take over our garden, but it’s been our tomatillo plant that has gone bizerk and will likely make its way to your front porch at any moment.  Plus the stupid thing is too busy taking over the world to produce a single mature tomatillo.  So my batch of homemade salsa verde remains only a dream.

 

Let’s see what else… oh, we have a new roommate!  It’s Russell :).  You may recall that we have a detached garage in the backyard that the previous owners finished out and turned into a game room.  We had a friend from church live out there for the majority of last school year, and then another friend from church lived there for a few months this winter.  I was just about to turn it back into a nice guest house when Russell decided to take us up on our offer for a free roof over his head after graduation.  He started a job that keeps him pretty busy, but it is so nice having him so (very) close.  I don’t know how long he’ll stay, but we’re enjoying it while we can.

I don’t have any pictures to share yet, but we have a small remodel going on in our house right now.  We’re reconstructing the wall between our living room and kitchen to open up the space.  It looks amazing so far (thanks to the fact that we are doing none of the work ourselves). We considered the project for years but finally went for it.  I’m using it as an excuse to redo some decor in our living room as well, so stay tuned for some pictures of the finished product in a few weeks!

Oh, another great thing… Kolby preaches at our church once in a blue moon when our pastor is out of town or just needs a pinch-hitter for a Sunday.  It’s a great honor (pastors don’t give their pulpits up for just anyone!), and Kolby is an incredibly talented teacher—including the teaching of scripture.  I’m so amazed at his ability to write such incredible sermons, and it’s just so great to see him deliver them and hear so many people talk about how it touched them.  Anyway, he preached on Father’s Day this year.  I don’t really have the words to share what a wonderful and unique experience that was.  I think I’ll try to find a way to put the text to his sermons on the blog somewhere because I promise it’s worth your time to read them!  He preaches again toward the end of the month.

Well, that’s about it around here!

 

 

We find out whether we’re having a boy or a girl VERY soon… so stay tuned for that announcement!  To go ahead and answer the questions I get asked a lot these days—no, I don’t have a feeling as to what it is…. and no, we don’t have a preference!  A boy seems natural since both of our families started with boys first, but my heart melts at the thought of Kolby with a girl.  Can you even imagine thatfather-of-the-bride toast?!?  Oh dear.  So we’re thrilled either way!  As far as names, we have about three of each that we both absolutely love.  Some are ones that we've loved for years, and others are new.  We’re hoping one will jump out to us when we find out the gender and see our little one on the sonogram screen (which I absolutely can’t wait for!!!).  If not, our fallback plan is to have six children so we get to use all of the names :).  Sounds like a great plan to me!

Pregnant

If it wasn’t blatantly obvious from my last post, we are pregnant :)

 

And super excited!  Our baby boy/girl is due the first week of December.  Just in time for our 5^th wedding anniversary.  It’s going to be a wonderful month!

 

Getting here is a fairly long story, but I will say that I wouldn’t trade our experience with infertility for anything in the world.  So much growth comes from trials, and I learned a lot about who God is during that time.  Plus, the extra time of it just being Kolby and me is something I know we’ll always appreciate.  We’ve had a great couple of years—had so much fun together and also had a lot of time to dedicate toward serving together at our church.

 

That said, I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t difficult at times.  But we can save that for another day.

 

For now, I’ll share the much abbreviated version of our journey.  After about 10 months of trying to get pregnant, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS).  PCOS is the #2 cause of infertility in women.  Awesome.  Then about 9 months after that, I was diagnosed with severe and aggressive endometriosis.  Endometriosis is the #1 cause of infertility in women.  Double awesome.  We were told by our fertility specialist that because the way my endometriosis was behaving, my ability to ever get pregnant would likely diminish fast, and he advised that we consider some rather serious fertility treatment.  I came to grips with what had turned into my absolute worst nightmare, and Kolby and I (and a few others) began praying for healing.  God is healer. Before giving much thought as to where to go from there, I first needed to have a very large endometrioma (ovarian cyst caused by endometriosis) removed from my left ovary.  This is where the story takes a wild turn.  I go in for surgery on March 30.  I’m at the hospital, in a gown and cap, waiting alone for the anesthesiologist when the nurse walks in with a positive pregnancy test. Absolutely the most crazy moment of my life.

 

There is so much more to the story, but there it is in a nutshell!

 

Right now we are just soaking up every single moment of this experience.  It is truly a miracle, and we remain in awe of God’s work in this. 

 

Switching to much more trivial matters, I feel like I need to post the obligatory belly pic.  I am completely obsessed with my baby belly.  I look at it and touch it a million times a day.  I just can’t believe it.  Sounds silly I know, but it’s the first tangible evidence of this dream come true.  And I think it's growing well ahead of schedule because while the books all say that I may be starting to show soon and that at 14 weeks “your uterus may be enough to push your tummy out a tad,” some nights I seriously look like I’m six months pregnant.  Ha!

 

Here’s my belly on a pretty normal day (14 weeks):

[We're now almost to 16 weeks; it took me awhile to get around to posting this!]

[Also, please excuse Maya. This was not posed...she just wouldn't move.]

Update on our life in general coming soon!

December 2012

Twenty months of negative pregnancy tests

Two causes of infertility

One to two percent chance of having a baby on our own

A handful of people praying fervently for us

One surprise of a lifetime

 

God is faithful.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,  to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.  

Ephesians 3:20-21

Weekend Update

Russell graduated on Saturday.  Now for the first time in 10 years there isn't a Webb kid at Baylor.  I think it's sad, but I'm sure my parents' wallets are rejoicing!  :)

I honestly don't think anyone was sure it was really going to happen until we heard his name called.  We have this term, "classic Russell" that we use a lot in our family.  Example:

Brad, the morning of the 5K we all ran a few weeks ago:  Where is Russell?

Mom:  He forgot to register in time.  Then he forgot to ask off work so he could at least be here to watch.

Brad:  Classic Russell.

But lo and behold he finished his BBA degree with majors in finance and entrepreneurship, and he even did it on time!!  I'm really, really proud of him.  School was not his forte.  But he toughed it out, worked hard, studied abroad twice, and lived to tell at about it.

On Saturday the whole family celebrated his accomplishment:

Congratulations, Russell!  We're so proud of you!

P.S.  He's on the job hunt.  If anyone knows of anyone looking for a new business/finance graduate, please let us know!

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Then on Sunday, my parents and Remy's parents came to town and we all went to church with Brad & Remy to celebrate Tucker's baby dedication.  Afterward we went out for a Mother's Day brunch.  It was a nice day for pictures... and you know I can't resist... so here are some of my favorites:

He is getting so close to walking!  He can easily stand by himself, and at Russell's graduation party he even took two steps.  My guess is he'll be running around by Memorial Day.

Oh my word that boy is the cutest thing I've ever seen.

Community Garden

Kolby and I bought a plot at a nearby community garden this year.  It's just a few blocks away from our house, about halfway to the library, so we were already walking right by it almost every night.  We figured why not take a stab at it.  Even though we've basically killed everything we've ever planted at our house.  You know us, just a couple of green thumbs.

We went in on this $38 investment with Kassidy and Derek, who happen to also live a few blocks from the garden.  We cheated and started off with with small plants rather than seeds.  But it paid off because everything is still alive (knock on wood).  Most of the plants have grown A LOT since we planted them the first week of April.

We went for a salsa garden theme... lots of tomatoes, tomatillos, jalapenos, a bunch of other peppers, and cilantro.  We also planted rosemary, okra, a couple of strawberry plants, and two cantaloupe plants that are absolutely going to take over the whole plot before all is said and done.  

We've even had our very first produce (a poblano and some tiny jalapenos):

Last week we decided the poblano was finally ready to be picked.  This picture makes me laugh because you can see Kolby's handheld radio laying on the ground.  No evening walk is complete without listening to the Rangers game in the background  :)

Here's to a summer full of garden-fresh produce like this little beauty!

Catching Up

Well, not much is going on around here but I suppose it's time for an update anyway.  I need to warn you that I got bored just writing this, so I advise you to lower any expectations you may have.

Our family survived the 5K race at Baylor:
   
I had to take a long hiatus from training while I recovered from bronchitis, and I never really got back on track.  Apparently an infection of the airways really does a number on your ability to jog for any amount of time without getting completely winded.  So I walked with my mom (who was pushing Tucker in a stroller) for about half of it and then jogged half, clocking in at a brisk 14 minutes per mile pace :).  Everyone did great though--even beating their goals--and Kolby did the best out of everyone, thanks to his snazzy new running shoes:
 
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We have some exciting news!  Our good friends, Tyler & Erin, are moving back to Texas!  They have lived on the other side of the country (ok, only Arkansas) for several years, but they were both accepted into graduate programs at Baylor so they’ll be moving to Waco over the summer.  We’re excited to have them so much closer!  And Waco is great because my parents live there so we are there quite a bit.  Congrats, guys, on your acceptance and big move!  Sic ‘em bears!
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Now for a couple of stories.

We had a big storm a couple weeks ago and baseball-sized hail hit Kolby's school.  It left his car looking like this:
 
Our insurance company declared it totalled, so Kolby went hunting for a new car and ended up getting another gray Toyota Corolla.  He lives on the edge.  It's his first new car, though, so that's a little exciting at least.


Anyone remember this?  Well it happened again.  We had our Bible study group over at our house the other night and it was thundering, so Maya was freaking out and we couldn't put her outside since it was raining.  So I put her back in our bedroom, and to help block out the noise of her pacing all over the wood floors I swung our closet door open so that it served as a second barrier alongside the bedroom door.  Well, when we went to open the bedroom door later to let her out, it only opened about half an inch because the closet door had jammed up against it.
  
It took Kolby and I almost an hour to get the situation resolved.  I got my fingers so painfully stuck that I thought Kolby might need to break down the door, then Kolby got his stuck, then at one point we debated waking the neighbors up to to see if their kids' tiny hands could be of any help.  Once again, Maya wasn't too phased and pretty much just wanted to go outside afterward to chase bunnies (see her tail wagging?).
 
Speaking of Maya, it's spring and that means two things for her.  One, the sun is warm now so she rediscovered the joy of basking in it.  She barely even makes it out the door before collapsing:
  
And two, she sheds her winter coat.  Oh the shedding:
 
Who killed the Easter bunny?
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I'll wrap up with the latest events in our life
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We celebrated Easter with Kolby's family this year and had such a great time.  We had a big family lunch after church on Sunday:
 
I somehow didn't take pictures of hardly any of the 17 guests, but here are a few of a very special one:
 
Kyndall is now almost five months old and is so beautiful and fun!

And finally, it's baseball season again!  Opening day was last Friday and Kolby has already been to four games.  I went with him to three of them-- I'm much better company in April than in August when it's 110 degrees in the stadium.  We're excited for the new season and are holding out for another trip to the World Series.  Third time is a charm!

He is reson

Happy Easter!

We just got back from helping get our church all set up for the service tomorrow.

I think our pastor's kid captured the message perfectly:

Yes, He is risen (or rather, reson).

Now after the Sabbath, toward the dawn of the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to see the tomb.  And behold, there was a great earthquake, for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled back the stone and sat on it.  His appearance was like lightning, and his clothing white as snow.  And for fear of him the guards trembled and became like dead men.  But the angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you seek Jesus who was crucified.  He is not here, for he has risen, as he said.”

Matthew 28: 1-6

Spring Break = Spring Training

We had a GLORIOUS time in Phoenix for Spring Break last week!  Eighty degrees, sunny, just Kolby and me, baseball, Mexican food-- this vacation had it all.

We spent 3 nights in the Phoenix area, mainly watching baseball games and going to practice.  Then we drove up to Sedona for 2 nights, but it turned into only 24 hours because me recovering from bronchitis plus altitude equaled misery.  I've never had altitude sickness before, but it was rough.  It was either the altitude or the city of Sedona is my kryptonite.  Either way, we high-tailed it down from there and stayed at a luxurious Best Western near the Phoenix airport.  But, it scored us an extra day of baseball so we really can't complain.

Here are a bunch of pictures from our trip.

Saving $$ by taking a 6am flight was a much better idea in theory than actuality.  But we made it and were happy to be on a plane headed out for vacation just the two of us!

But, the early flight paid off when we made it to the Rangers' Spring Training complex by 10am, ready to watch batting practice.  Kolby was in heaven.

I brought a baseball to have players sign.  Not sure what I'm going to do with it, but I got a lot of autographs, including Nelson Cruz, Derek Holland, Mike Napoli, Matt Harrison, Joe Nathan, and David Murphy.  I was basically an autograph ninja.  My biggest accomplishment by far was that I got my baseball signed by Yu Darvish.  That means nothing to most (if not all) of you, but he is the Rangers' new star pitcher and is a really big deal because this is his first experience in MLB; he's from Japan and is VERY famous over there.  Basically what I'm saying is that y'all should be super impressed that I got his autograph :).  He never signs and just happened to do it one of the days we were there and I ended up in the small group of people that made the cut.  Ninja.

 Kolby got his World Series ticket signed by Derek Holland (who pitched that game) and Mike Napoli (who hit a 3-run homer that game).  He was one happy camper.

 Going to the practices was the best part, but we also went to three games.

 All in all I give Spring Training an A+.  We had an absolute blast.  I couldn't have cared less about baseball or the Texas Rangers before marrying Kolby, but it has slowly infiltrated my brain over time and now I really enjoy following it.  Plus, baseball is our thing that we do together.  There are a lot of things that are made even more fun with the company of friends or family, but going to Rangers games is something that we have the most fun when it's just us.  Which is a good thing because we watch more baseball than anyone on the planet has ever cared to watch.  Ever.

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Now moving on to the limited non-baseball part of the trip...

We went to a botanical garden, where we saw a LOT of cactus (I refuse to use cacti, sorry):

We climbed a big rock (warning: my pale shin in this first picture might blind you):

 We admired the millions of saguro cactus that were absolutely everywhere:

Kolby climbed Camelback Mountain:

We drove up to Sedona, which was absolutely beautiful.  The red rock formations in Sedona were amazing.  I wish I had the chance to take pictures (the flu-like altitude sickness had other plans for me).  But, Kolby went on one hike and snapped a few:

 And here was my view from the car while I waited for him.  Not bad, eh?

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The rest of the time we just relaxed.  We were traveling on the cheap, and spring in Phoenix is peak season for hotels so we went with vrbo.com instead.  We found this big amazing house in a small and beautiful gated neighborhood just north of Phoenix, and it had a pool house that we rented for $89/night.  It was perfect.  We just hung out there in the evenings and enjoyed the sunset and warm weather.  We watched Airplane! (again) and Kolby laughed out loud through the whole thing (again).  I finished books 2 and 3 of The Hunger Games and loved every second of them (I already have my ticket to the movie next week and have seriously never looked forward to a movie more!).  Kolby also read a lot-- probably something more sophisticated than young adult novels.  We baked cinnamon rolls for breakfast.  I took at least one bubble bath a day in the jacuzzi tub.  We slept with the windows open.  I packed my blowdryer and straightener and never got either out of my suitcase.  It was the perfect vacation!!

So, here's to Spring Break, Phoenix, and spring training.  We hope to do it all again sometime!!